What are we afraid of?

I’m in my comfort zone.

About three years ago I had a very active social life. I would be out all the time meeting a bunch of new people and it was just great. Like all things, it came to an end and I didn’t do much to continue mingling with other people to maintain my active social life. Somewhere along the lines it got difficult and I’m not sure why that is. I’m naturally an extrovert, I love being around people, talking to them, trying to understand them on a deeper level. Having said that I also really like being by myself and the past year, I’ve gotten really good at being myself and being very content. It’s dangerous.

I was skyping with my best friend before thinking of what to post and she was telling me about her life. She was contemplating moving to Dubai but decided not to because she doesn’t want to miss out on the life she has worked so hard to create for herself in Toronto. I don’t blame her especially since I want her to move to Dubai for purely selfish reasons. I miss her, I miss having friends I can rely on and I’m tired of having acquaintances and meaningless friendships. It’s ironic how my closest friends are geographically so far away from me. The featured image popped up as I was reading a random article and it made me think why I’m stuck in a somewhat “pity party”. I feel that I am afraid to open up, mingle and have a social life again only because I have become so comfortable in my comfort zone. I’ve in some ways gone back to the girl that I was shy and content in her own world and it’s a shame because I’ve worked hard to be confident and a somewhat risk taker. Before doing something, I’m usually advised against doing, I always ask myself, what’s the worst that can happen? Please note, I’m not wild at all and this is mostly applied on relationships, career/job prospects and talking to strangers. I miss the dynamic/spontaneous person I used to be and in someways I am afraid to open up again and I’m not sure why. I don’t really think that it’s fear, I think I’ve gotten too lazy and I love Frasier. I look forward to finishing with work so I can come home to watch Frasier, wow that’s pretty sad. I went from watching no tv because I had a life to watching only tv. Right, this needs to stop. It’s time to get back and enjoy life, the way it is meant to be enjoyed.

I think I need a start over. I wasn’t happy with yesterday, nor today. I lack motivation to do things whole heartedly as I used to and I think all of this comes down to me seriously needing a break. It’s my drapetomania and it’s hitting me hard. I really want to go away for a little while, a change of scenery is always so necessary.

Here are a few ideas:

  1. I could go to Oman, it’s nearby and it’s gorgeous.
  2. Petra, Jordan, also relatively nearby
  3. Stay in the UAE and go to the mountain regions, like Fujairah.
  4. Take up a language course and just have my mind engaged in something
  5. Refresh my piano skills
  6. Find ways to meet more people

Nice to know I have options and I haven’t been to any of these places. So I will follow the advice of the random website pop-up and I will try something different. I’m sure it will help with my motivation levels and hopefully will also help my become more creative in my writing. 🙂

I would love to hear your thoughts on these ideas and I am open to more suggestions.

Have a beautiful night everyone. 🙂 x

Selectively Curious©

Author: Selectively Curious

Stuck in a limbo, dancing between Abu Dhabi, Dubai and London

2 thoughts on “What are we afraid of?”

  1. I was in the same boat recently – all my friends living in different towns (admittedly closer than yours seem to be but fifty miles or five thousand miles is inconsequential when you can’t see them regularly). I’ve always found it difficult to make friends when that’s my sole objective, but when I do something I enjoy doing eventually friends seem to appear. At least that’s what’s happened for me in the last year or so -I took up a sport I enjoy and initially didn’t make too many friends but then slowly but surely the friendships started to form.
    Then again, if I was to offer anyone one piece of advice, it would be to not listen to my advice…

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