Don’t be afraid anymore. 

I’ve been a bit of a scardy cat my whole life, in some ways I don’t like an adrenaline rush so you won’t ever find me on a rollercoaster or sky diving. When I was a kid I would always walk behind my mom, her being my mighty shield. I’m not sure what I was so afraid of, here are a few things that I remember:

1. People; 
2. Loud noises;
3. Being away from my mom.

The list above is not exclusive and thinking back, I was quite an odd child. Being the only girl with two brothers I’ve naturally been close to my mother. I remember waking up in the middle of the night every night checking if my parents were still in bed. I had this weird paranoia that my parents would abandon me even though I was too young to even understand the consequences for the abandonment to fear it but that used to be my greatest fear. 

On one of those nights, I must have been maybe 3, I woke up to do my daily checks and opened my bedroom door. After I heard my parents speaking I closed the door. My younger brother’s pram was learning against the wall and when I opened the door, the pram lost its balance and fell on my foot. I don’t remember the pain but I remember being carried and looking at my right foot with my eyes filled with tears. I have a scar on my foot till this day. 

Relating back to the title of this post, it reminds me how far I have come from that night and now even when I am afraid, I fight my fears because no one ever became successful if they gave into those fears. That night taught me to be more brave and not be paranoid about silly things. It taught me that scars heal, even if you pick at it, with time, it heals until it is barely visible. 

I will take a leap of faith and challenge myself to be better everyday. We owe it to ourselves to be the best that we can be. So what are you waiting for? Go on, take a leap of faith and believe that the best is yet to come. 

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