Kiki – My beloved cat (may she rip)

To put it simply, she passed away.  I want to dedicate this post to her, because every thought of her makes me happy and sad because I will always miss her. It’s like a sweet melancholy.  Maybe writing this will help me have the closure I want and not cry at the very thought of her (already failing, I’ve had to take a deep breath and blink a lot since I’m at work and don’t want to be caught crying). 

It all started in 2012, when she first came into our home. She was only 2.5 months old and she was a very introverted cat, in other words, she was a scardy cat. She also, always looked so worried or sad, kind of like the grumpy cat but in her case, she had a sad face. She was scared of everything except for her family which consists of my two brothers and parents. None the less, she was our little princess. The way she would strut about the house like a cute little fur ball with her tail held up high. She was so delightful, I just wanted to hug her all the time and if she didn’t squirm 4 seconds into the hug, I’d probably never let her go. She loved food and quite soon became a very healthy cat. Her love for food was above her love for sleep and some of the times, as soon as there was a sound that even remotely resembled the sound of her food dish clanking, I would see her running towards me, her eyes barely open. She was so precious and I am grateful everyday that I had her and I had a chance to love her. As soon as I would come home, knowing all of her hiding spots, she would be the first I would greet.

We moved houses a couple of years ago and I’m not sure if it was because of the move or something else but she developed cat asthma. We took her to the vet’s and she would get injections now and then. It kept getting worse. Over the year I saw her appetite begin to get smaller and she began to lose weight. Sometimes she would just sit by the food but not eat it, it would break my heart. Her asthma got worse and pretty soon she was no longer with us. I won’t go into the  details of what happened because even thinking about her overwhelms me with sadness. 

Featured photo was during her younger/healthier times. Look how fluffy she was! I have tons of photos of her, which I didn’t share on purpose because it makes me miss her too much. 

Here’s a more clear one of her:

I wish, more than anything else that she is in a better place and I hope that maybe one day, I will be re-united with her and we shall be curious together. ❤ 

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